What a goofy title, right? Let me explain.
I recently finished a painting that was giving me headaches – figuratively. I had a decent drawing to start with, which I posted last time. But once I started applying paint I started to grow bored with the image. I wanted to cover up the blandness with something interesting… when I started seeing floating, flashing lights in my vision – a symptom I experience immediately preceding a migraine headache. Literal headaches this time. The scientific name for these lights is scintilating scotoma. Generally I just refer to them as the flashing lights of impending doom, but to each his own. Usually these lights fill me with a building sense of dread as they grow exceedingly larger until they obscure a large crescent shaped portion of my vision, blocking out words, faces, whole figures and finally dissipating in a furious crescendo of unfettered pain. But this time the lights provided a solution to my problem with the painting.
I decided to infuse those lights into the image, to try and create a physical manifestation of them. Perhaps that would get rid of them? I could only hope. Anyways, as I started painting the geometric shapes on top I started to feel like perhaps this mix of the representative with more visually abstracted shapes would suit me well. I was certainly happy with the finished work, especially having saved it from being tossed aside only to be wiped out with a layer of gesso later. It was empowering to take something which has been a pestilence in my life and use it to my advantage.
Here are both the preliminary drawing, and the finished painting. Amazing where inspiration can come from, is it not?